I find myself every few days rereading and remembering Darwin’s delivery to Wee….
I tried to make it special. I tried to impress upon her WHY she was getting such a fabulous gift. I tried to make it a moment to remember.
On some levels I failed. On other levels I succeeded though.
What I did was a wrote a letter from Santa to Wee. I then showed up at her daycare; Darwin and letter in tow. Unfortunately she was napping when I arrived; that’s where the fail comes in. But her little eyes did so light up when she saw him still. And then I sat with the two of them on my lap and I read the letter from Santa. I know the letter means something to her because she asks me to read it to her every few days. So that was a success.
For those who haven’t seen the letter; here it is:
My Dearest Special Friend
I did so want to be able to make this visit to you personally but, I am very busy getting ready to make my trip around the world to deliver gifts to all of the boys and girls. I do hope you understand.
I have trusted your Mommy to pass this message to you though.
Your Mommy and I have talked quite a lot. She tells me that you are an amazing little girl with a great big heart; that you have been very brave and very strong through all of the changes you have been through lately; and that most of all, you have been a great big help to her.
She tells me that you are a very special little girl; and that you mean the world to her.
I have heard your wishes for a “new James” to love and to care for.
I have heard your Mommy speak about how amazing you are, how brave you are, how kind you are.
I have watched you be kind and generous. I have watched you share, I have watched you give, I have watched you grow and learn.
Above all else, I have watched your smile light up every room that you enter; and watched that same smile warm your Mommy’s heart.
I cannot promise that easier times are around the corner my Dearest; but I can promise that, if you and your Mommy continue to work together, you will get through anything.
Now like I said, I did want to see you in person, deliver this message, and this gift, but time became short for me. I didn’t want to bring him on my trip around the world; I was afraid that he would get cold. So, I brought him here, to your Mommy, with this message:
Continue to be kind, continue to be strong, continue to be brave, and stand tall with your Mommy; together you will make it through anything.
Your Mommy loves you more than you can imagine; and looks up to you. You have shown her so much about living my Dear. You have taught your Mommy how to smile and what love is.
Please have a Merry Christmas my Dear. And remember; there are many people who love you.
I have to tell you; while she was perched on my lap with her Darwin, listening to her letter from Santa, petting his little head and holding his little hand, there wasn’t a dry eye in the place. Not even mine.
This letter to her, the letter that I wrote, it is so full of honesty…. So full of the truth. My three year old has taught me more about life, love, and happiness than I could have ever learned.
She is my rock.
I admire her. I admire her strength, her ability to give, her ability to receive, her ability to love unconditionally.
I hope that in this year to come; this year that will be full of more trials; that she will still be able to smile freely, laugh often, dance always, and love like it will never hurt.
I hope that all of the mistakes I make raising her will not leave their mark. I hope that she can forgive the mistakes that I do make; large and small.
I hope that she will continue to be brave and be strong.
I hope that she will continue to be my guiding light; my beacon in the dark; my sun.
That is my wish…. My wish for her; my wish for us; for the coming New Year.